Okay, its about tyme fer me to bring ma blog beck to LIFE..!!! LoL~

It's been awhile since ma last blog update, i swear i'm super lazy.. Ferst of all, i lost ma mood to talk/publicize about ma life so 'others' can read and follow up.. Second is cause i already got a Twitter account so means i'm like 'micro-blogging' now.. Third, i dun wanna let 'outsiders' noe much about ma life unless dey really noe me..

Okae, so now i've started da trend beck i got loads to sae/write.. Seriously, LOADS~  =O
So let me break it down into few portions so ya'll can understand & follow up about wads goin on in Enchik-Sama's LIFE, yeah..?

- About why i wanna stop blogging, da real reason behind it all..
- Scoops & Behind-the-scenes of ma life while i stopped blogging..
- Ma life dat i continue as time passes by..
- About some 'climax' of ma life..
- Summary of 2009..
- Start of 2010 & why i reborn ma blog..
- Wad i am currently doin ryte NOW..


Okae, so dats da breakdown procedure so expect YOU readers to spent about lets sae few minutes to read ma blog?.. Unless ya'll just scanning thru er super fast eyes den perhaps thirteen-minutes will do fer ya.. Ready?.. Set, and GO.......


Reason why i wanna stop blogging if ya'll trace beck was cause i lost ma motivation to update every dae er week er month.. I soo hate it when people askin me when do i wanna update ma blog.. Because fer me, wad i'm typing here is all about ma LIFE.. If dey wanna kepo-kepo why not just be PART of it.. Get some closure and ya'll will noe da happening and all.. If not, just BEAT IT.. I'm not gonna pressure you about ur life.. I can be nosy at tymes but hey, i am understanding as well.. If ya'll dun wanna let other people noe den i wont persue.. Dats fer me mann, no pressure.. Why must chase other people's life when u have YOURS..?! Stupid kan.. So da 'baga'.. Apart from dat, also i noe da fire-starter fer me to blog is cause of dis particular gerl name 'Alia'.. Well she is a gerl if i'm not wrong, hahh, joke-joke she IS one and gettin more 'famine' and 'chio-bu' now.. So if i start blogging cause of her motivation, now dat i have no closure with her no more(due to some complications), why must i continue wif dis lifestyle dat i'm not persistant enuf to commit, u see..? So yeah, partly dat is da reason uh.. Apart from motivation oso i want some 'privacy' in ma life cause maybe/perhaps dat point i was so called 'misleading life' and it was kinda ugly.. Another thing is i just dun see da point 'story-telling' about ma life in PUBLIC, so darn merepek..

I stopped blogging, loads of things happened.. Really, alot of THINGS dat came thru.. Some i am unable to remeber while some FOR SURE i will.. Others i dont think i wanna elaborate much and yet still another i may not be able to cover.. So here maybe i can give some simple 'updates' about wads goin on since i stopped blogging.. It was during dat period where i got close wif dis babe, Lia.. She was considered ma dear 'adek-angkat' and beck den we were so called gettin CLOSE.. So close till i fell fer her.. And not dat i literally meant it but practically and emotionally as well.. Seriously, i thot i was in 'love' with her, madly i am.. I do things dat i shuld had not done to anyone else and even those dat i used to with ma ex.. She was so called an item of 'replacement' during dat tyme.. But i noe wad i was doin was wrong.. And i dun wanna keep dat 'replacement' concept in-hand.. I wanna make her an ORIGINAL.. Not sumone whom wuld replace ma love i had once before in life.. I tried a couple of tymes, i did tried ma best but sumhow it just dosent fit.. It dosent even seem ryte.. But when finally i found da ability to convert dat feeling into an 'original', i lost ma chance.. I was little too late.. Fer wad reason i do not understand we both fought fer an entire MONTH(June 09)..!! It was depressing.. I planned to spend a dae out with her during dat period cause she was having her holidaes and her bufdae was around da corner.. But things just dosent seem to fit.. I tried to convince her but she wont hear me out.. On her bufdae itself i confronted ma love fer her.. Which was so real, i swear it was ORIGINAL & REAL, so much dat i can throw ma past away, even da sake of doing anything fer her.. Yes love is blind and reckless at tymes.. On dat night itself, i called her, she was persistent and wont answer ma calls but eventuallie she did.. I cried, like mad i do.. She rejected me.. I was dere offering my honest and sincere feelings of  compassion fer her yet she denied me and turn me off.. It was sickening.. I was downstruck but as so i was expecting it already.. But sumhow even dat i prepared maself fer da rejection(i always do), dis tyme around seems hard.. And different cause i noe dat dis feeling i had fer her has aroused from ma rehab.. Just as dose years i closed ma door fer love.. I closed ma door towards dose gerls dat i tried on after ma beloved-ex, dose tymes i given it up, dis was da tyme i wanna give love a try.. Dis was da moment i wanna open ma doors and welcome love beck into ma life, da door slammed beck infront of me and tight shut.. I am really pissed + depressed + ashamed + sick + wadever dere is lah.. Even typing about it here reminds me of dat very dae, so detailed as if its yesterdae.. Aniwae, dat was dat uh, part og 'climax' in life tho it was not a 'good' one..

After dat incident, i was turning to ma best buddies da most.. dey are ma beloved-ex(Nur) & ma buddy-gold(Nas).. Dey were dose people dat noes me BEST, even till dis dae i can declare dat.. Da longest friendship i've had are in YEARS are DEM.. And i'm proud to have dem part of ma life even till dis dae.. Tho dey may not be so close animore nor spent much tyme together but wadeva we've been thru in da past is wad develope dat 'strong bond' we share, we called it "Bermuda-Triangle".. Yeah, da name is a 'LOL'.. So as i was saying, den afta dat rejection period i turn to dem.. Tho not so much to Nur as i wanna be so called 'resistace'  towards her, but eventualie i got a closure.. I dunnot noe why er how it came to begin but it just happen.. Maybe it was dat 'fourth chance' er maybe it was only a mere 'try-out' er just pure 'fooling-around'.. I dunnoe but da werds she gave me was dat to have a so called 'un-official relationship' cause she dun wanna rush partly, another is she dun wanna date sum other guys whom needs to go thru with da so called 'normal' procedure like 'kenal2 dulu den can macam2' ya noe..? So yeh, i was dat 'dude' dat knew her 'best' and yet still, so she choose me of all people.. I was fond of it and decided to give it a try, so yeh.. I dun wanna elaborate much about dat period cause i might spent too much typing on it and off-focus on others.. I wish i do wanna sae more but, neah..

So yeah, ma blog was declared DEAD a few tymes.. Dere was dat tyme when it's sappose to be dead but den an update suddenly appeared.. I was like 'LOL'.. It was dis babe uh i met(Fana), er so called 'kenal-kenal' along da wae but actualie i knew her already cause added her as fren in Tagged & MSN.. But den long tyme neva see her online to chat and i also already delete away ma Tagged account.. So yeh, dat point, we got started uh.. And best about her dat i can sae, she was amongst dose dat can 'impress' me via werds itslef.. It aint easy fer anyone to impress Enchik-Sama okae.. LoL, but yeh she sumhow did capture ma attention, and yes very well indeed.. So it went on fer a period of tyme.. But nothing much happen, cause i dun wanna anything to happen oso.. But one thing i treat dis gerl differently form others is i tried to be extra honest and sincere.. Compare to others ryte, i'm just abit too nice towards her den others i dunnoe why.. Dere was a couple of occasions uh when she went silent mode den re-appear den silent mode agaen and re-appear agaen, kinda funny uh dat gerl.. Apart from dat, i wont sae much about her..

Moving on as da days passes, i grew much more deep with Erah & her family.. Went out wif her and fam on few occasions.. I guess her mom really adores me much, i'm just sayin.. LoL.. But really, i have neva got any much attention from a 'mom' other den Erah's, honest.. I'm not sayin it aint gud but scary yet beneficial at tymes.. Hehee.. Yeh, i'm enjoying it uh, who wont.. Her mom already consider me as 'anak-angkat'.. And i'm like 'WTH'..... Yeah, i just treat her daughter like normal, really i do, well, i do.. Okae2, i tried to.. But well, complications uhh.. Between me and her, i no comment uhh.. But sumhow during da process, like normal, when one human being gets closure with another, surely an adaptation occurs.. Yah, i do develop some 'feelings' fer her uhh.. I admit, yes.. But still, i hide it from her, ofcourse i wont show.. Never will, chey.. But yeh, i wont want to give a wrong impression lah.. Better she finds out herself.. Tho at tyme i do give her hints and indirect-tips, she still no observe i guess.. Yup, i do did some confessions at a point, three tymes altogether i think, sum it up, she still no responce.. Cause her excuse is "i dunnoe".. Typical, but as expected.. I wish she can be more direct, but at da same tyme i love trying to figure her out.. Exciting, it makes me feel like 'hunting' agaen, tho in da past i suck, but i get better as i progress, i hope.. Huhuu~

In da middle part i got abit of closure uh, but not so close, just a 'moment' uh with dis cool babe(Selynna).. She's attatched, and we went out sumhow, she ASKED.. Dorts, i was sumhow 'vacant' dat tyme and was bored so she was too.. Went on a movie, i told her to ask permission from her bf(Amir) ferst before anything bad er wrong impression gets in.. So yeah, we went, oh and bump into Fana sumhow.. She thot Selynna was ma gf but hell no.. Already danger go out like dat, huhuu.. Still, i saw her with a 'guy' which she dat tyme claims to be her bf, but den after few weeks found out broke, den different storie.. I dunnoe lah ehh, confusing.. So i wont elaborate much here uhh, scared mislead info.. Hehh..

Another funny thing i wanna touch-up upon is ma so called 'gay-buddy'(Ferril) is den considered himself attatched to dis young gerl Fifah.. Yeah, she's barely fifteen years old.. I guess dey are so da close till dey declare demselves 'attch' after not even realizing it nor accepting it.. Dey just assume da date on 20th Feb to be da starting point, sweet ryte?.. Bahh, i'm actualie abit disgusted + honored to have him finally settle down to a GERL.. Like finally uh ehh.. After all dis years i wont expect dat fella to be in a relationship, even if he does he wuld be with ME.. LOL, i kid.. Yup, i'm glad fer him and i hope dey last long.. Ofcourse must be supportive, why not?.. Everybody deserves to feel love and be loved.. I had ma chance and tyme, now its his turn to feel da 'gay'.. Hope he wont make it a mistake like mine, i'll keep on giving him some tips and advicess, cause i want him to enjoy it while it last.. And i wanna see it last, so make sure it will so i can actualie have a product to be happy with.. Apart form dat about him, we grew so close with each other, seriously close, as in GAY-CLOSE.. Her mom also declares me 'anak-angkat'.. Now i got two extra mom's(mak-angkat) apart from Nas's mom whom declared me to be in 2004, LoL.. I enjoy ma daes ad tyme with him, soo GAY...

Khai & Ama lasted ONE YEAR already.. Thru thick and thin, dey made it.. Weehoo! Congrats guys.. Yeah and hopefully get married soon ekh, lalalaa.. Okae luhh, dey are sweet couple.. Like wad Ferril said to me; "meant to be".. Ahahahaa.. So true, and betta be.. I love to see dem together, just envy me all da tyme.. Yeah, it's a gud thing sumhow i envy cause i used to be soo 'in-love' during dose days.. But even if i dont feel dat wae, i am surrounded by friends whom are.. Ferril & Fifah, Khai & Ama, Nas & Aisyah, dey all are ma best budds in life and all are attch and happy.. Whoa so best.. Especially Nas, i actualie 'helped' him much to get bect together.. Shhh, cant talk much here.. So yeah, couples in ma social life.. Oh not to forget another one more couple whom sumhow survived a YEAR TOO.. Oh and not to forget Khai bought me a BLACK JEANS.. Which sappose to be expensive but den 'cheap', he said it's a christmas gift, so i gladly accept da offer.. "Rezeki tak boleh ditolak kan per.." Chey, melayu plak.. Hahaa.. So yeah, thanks alot dude, very GAY.. Come i give you kiss in return.. Or you wanna hug..? Er ya want BOTH..?! LoL, i kid.. Im STRAIGHT.. But still GAY.. Like i said, i go "BOTH WAYS"..  *winks*

Farah(Honey) & Irsyad(Mickey), another engros series which have soo many juicy gossips and stories dat i soo wanna love to talk and share BUT, i cant due to confidential crisis.. But still, i wanna mention dem cause especially da babe(Farah) have done a big impact in ma life.. By many waes, be it as a 'bestie' er as an influential 'couple' and even wif her attitude/character.. Taught me alot and alwaes will.. She even bring me out on 'adventures', LOL, okae and some were sexiting especially dat 'tripple-date'.. Free movie and makan from a random GUY, muahahaa.. Cant stop laughing at it.. Seriously, she changed alot and so does he, and i'm so proud of dem both.. Dey really survived it thru dis year.. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

So basically in year 2009 dere are loads of happenings in ma life, how not to, i'm spending ma last year as a TEENAGER.. Seriously, so GAY goin twenty soon.. I wish i culd be younger and remain young.. Too much of enjoying life.. Soo much till i get off track and drop out of school.. Well, actualie i wanted to.. I literally, no, i practically asked to 'quit' school.. I had enuf with da 'wasting tyme' dere.. Honestly i am pissed with da school and da lecturers.. I'm proud dat i quit cause of few reasons.. Im out of HELL, atleast now i am exploring da werld with many diff angles and perceptions of life.. Also now i get to see much more of da werld.. I am actualie EARNING money rather den rot ma balls off.. And finally i can actualie SUPPORT MASELF and carry dat burden away from Bonda, hopefully i can continue with dis.. I dun wanna give dat weight beck to her like i used to last tyme i failed.. I already dissapoint her soo much in 2009, i gotta make it up to her sumhow.. I plan to, in near future Insyallah.. And when i do, i must carry on with it all da wae and not stop dere.. Gosh, it's gettin abit emo when i go into 'deep' on dis topic.. I love ma mom, very much, werds cant express much here, she'll noe in akhirat.. Haizz.....

Oh, now i'm a part-time waiter, under agent werking at $5.50 per hour.. Atleast dis income can bring me up by ma own two-feet den to depend on others(like mom er dad).. And still wae better den werking at 7eleven downstairs where i only earn $3.50.. Dis agent is much betta as it gives me da flexibility i want on werking on certain daes.. I can actualie choose when to werk and when not too.. I need other tyme to do 'stuffs'.. I'll elaborate more later.. Apart from dat, i guess i'm half satisfied cause sometimes must handle products dat aint HALAL like pork and wine.. I tried goin beck to Newstead and asked Hai Loon er Julian Wong to help gimme a spot, dey tried dier best but still no 'green light' yet.. I cant wait any futher dats why i go on dat agency job which Khai recommends me, still okae uhh.. I am surviving well, dats all dat matters..

So 2009 come and go, just like dat.. Oh, Michael Jackson passed away, how sad and tragic.. very drama till global went abit 'hebo', okae more den dat, chaotic.. LoL, i wish i can tribute to him as well, he's ma childhood idol.. Cause of HIM i got canned in Primary Three, lol, childish 'act'.. *aoww*  Other den him, The Rev from A7X also passed awae near end of da year, another sad moment.. Dat dae i found out, i tribute listening to all A7X's songs all dae long.. Haa, and Qam went over saying he will posses him so he can play drum like pro-fuk.. GAY laah.. I wish it was true, atleast sumthin to be 'skill-fool' about.. Haa, but yeah, another thing to talk abt Qam is he found new gerls in life..? Whoa, another interesting fella.. Neva before seen to be like dis now all people change huh.. Kinda like Ferril's life story.. LoL..

And thus 2010 came.. Loads of things happen as well, i wanna only sae sum and da rest is all out on 'micro-blog' a.k.a Twitter.. So fer those whom are curious ya'll can follow me on Twitter, if i allow ya'll to, if not sorie ah ehh, i only want a few people to noe me deep, da rest "donnot cross da yellow line".. Hahahaa.. Gay much?.. I hope ya'll understand uh, i have reasons.. Atleast i'm public blogging now.. So all(public) can read and noe abit 'more' about me off-hand.. So consider me 'generous' ekh.. Hahaa..

Oh oh, 2010 best.. Hectic already in January.. I wish i can remember much so i can tell but sumhow i cant seem to function ma brain cells at dis tyme.. I was actualie doing dis blog late around 2300hrs and msging Hamzah at da same tyme.. He and his gerl(8 long years together) just got an iPhone so dey finding 'mr iPhone' refering to me lah, da socalled "IT GUY" all-rounder.. Not to boast but at tyme i hat being labled like such.. Tho i appreciate da tittle and attentioin i get but at tymes catch me wrong timing uh, i oso got 'stuff' to do ya noe.. Huhuu, no offence lah guys.. Especially family uhh.. So many appointments beck den.. And i'm expecting much more dis year.. Already helped Along with buying a lappie just now.. Introduced him with ma MAN(Julian Wong) and now i think dey can be 'best-frens' alreadi.. LoL.. Like okae like dat wad, i'm doing Julian and Newstead a favour.. I give dem more customers.. Hahaaa..

So so much i wanna type in and record it down but i'm just gettin fatigue and lerthagic as tyme passes.. Dats wad i hate about blogging, too much tyme spent on it.. I alwaes tweet, much easier, faster and flexible.. Still considered 'blogging' as well.. Khehh.. So yeah, fer more further updates, just follow me on 'Twitter' so it wuld be much ease to talk about Enchik-Sama's life.. Be updated dere, and yeah, i hope to update more here soon.. Perhaps once a month er if i'm free once a week.. See how lah, cannot guarantee uhh..

Mainly why i reborn ma Blog is cause many provoke me pluss encourage me pluss invite me pluss push me pluss threaten me pluss, alah many luhh to sae, to start Blogging and so yeh.. I dun wanna start just because of pressure but because i WANT TO.. Since i'm tweeting now, why not i just maximise more but less deep here on ma blog.. And lets see how many people/readers wuld actualie be interested.. Or i might just consider Vlogging, but needs a gud CAM and VIDEO editing software dat i can compromise on using.. Huhuu.. Till den, i'm stuck with TYPING to BLOG.. Hehh, alah can lahh.. Still productive(in wadeva sense uh) i can sae..

Okae luhh, i think dis is ma limit.. I do miss out some(much) but deres alwaes dat 'day' where all is revealed.. So might as well save it fer da best 'view'.. I will try ma best to put in more vibrant topics and cover more in significants here while i tweet da random-ness and sufficient.. Aye, i will be sleeping now got werk tmr.. And ohh, it Febuarary already.. In a matter of 16 daes.. Haiyoo.. Soon gonna be out of 'teenage-hood'.. I'm gonna miss ma life as one.. But LIFE GOES ON.. I'm gonna leave with a quote i creatively came up not a dae ago.. Kinda gay i can sae, ahh, i sae mann~



"Age Is Only A Certificate Of How Much Time We Spent In Life" - Enchik-Sama