Friday 13th (2009)

i was suppose to be bold and cunnig
strong yet courageous
but i wasn't
there i am,stood still upon that memoir
for over hours by hour
confused,uneasy,unwilling
remembering my promise that i made
to fight and survive
honor my word
to be a "somebody"
one day i will
or would i?
question by questions
leads no more to further mystery
complex and futile
i am no robot,no machine
human as i can be
devour my emotions i tried
failed at every thrust
swallow vain,anger,sorrow
despair it was
a path i shouldn't had asked
but i begged for
now suffer my consequences
shallow thru darkness
memories of past,it's all i have
gather them i might
but of what purpose
remembrance?
one shall not prevail
if one is haunted
by deep mistakes
that one once left
forgive and forget they say
easy yet only words
living the life brace facts unwind
totally outburst
uncontrollable i had become
bottled by time
ally betrayed
poets i carved
stories i forged
will i hope soon
that those surrounds me
knows the truth
in love am i?
personally,deli-ma